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I don’t really attend that regularly.

So they say I gotta be a member first.

I dig in my pockets and pull out lint, I can’t pay the fee.

They wrinkle noses and look at me sideways, welcoming me with crossed arms.

And expressions.

They say I can come but the cussing gotta go.

Shit!

My vulgar language offends the easily offended and he looks angrily upon it.

I wash my mouth out with soap, but fuck slips every now and again.

They try to save me…

A seat in front. So he can look me in my eyes and speak.

I’m moved. My heart filled with passion, love until it threatens to pop.

My eyes pool with tears of joy…as a mystifying feeling rushes through me.

In love.

But I still cuss so they tell me that my love aint good enough.

And my fee’s are past due.

I reach in my pocket and pull out more lint. I’m still allowed to stay though.

The only one without a halo, because sex aint all that bad to me and…

When I swim I don’t wear cover ups because its too hot for that bullshit and…

I don’t attend very often because I cant pay my fees and…

The kind of shrubbery I burn is far from holy but…

The passion and love I felt still occupies my heart infusing me with a mystifying feeling that puts my mind at ease and allows my heart to…

Forgive them for crossing their arms and expressions and…

Excuse them for ignoring me when we ran into each other outside of attendance…

Pardon their whispers as I passed and…

Look pass their condemning stares to find Love for them because…

Even though I don’t attend regularly, this feeling never goes away.