Call and Response

“I feel used.”

“SHUT UP. I’M NOT USED. HE REALLY MEANT WHAT HE SAID.”

“There could be somebody else, he don’t really want me as much as I would like to think.”

“DON’T SAY THAT. YES HE DO! IM THE ONLY ONE HE REALLY LOVES. YES, HE LOVES ME.”

“I’m pretty sure love don’t feel like this. How could he do this if he loves me?”

“EVERYBDOY HAS THAT ROUGH SPOT IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP, THIS IS OUR ROUGH SPOT. HE’S JUST GOING THROUGH SOME THINGS.”

“Love don’t feel like this. I can do better.”

“WE ARE TOGETHER FOR A REASON. THERES NOBODY ELSE I WANT.”

“I’m not scared to start over.”

“IM SCARED TO LET HIM GO. HE STILL NEEDS ME.”

“I need me.”

“I NEED HIM. I KNOW HE NEEDS ME TOO. I GOTTA BE THERE FOR HIM!”

“Who will be here for me?”

“HE JUST NEEDS SOME TIME…BUT I KNOW THAT WE WILL BE OK AGAIN. JUST LIKE LAST TIME.”

“This is crazy. The same thing keeps happening because I’m letting this happen.”

“THE SAME THING KEEPS HAPPENING BECAUSE I’M NOT TRYING HARD ENOUGH.”

“I cant be scared to let him go and let God work on me.”

“IM SCARED TO LOSE HIM COMPLETELY.”

“I’m scared that I’m losing myself to him.”

“I CANT MOVE ON BECAUSE IT HURTS TO MUCH DO SO.”

“I cant stay because it hurts to much to do so.”

“HE MEANS WHAT HE SAYS.”

“He means what he says?”

“STOP!..”

“Stop!...”

And then with tears in her eyes and pain in her heart she rolled away from the mirror and integrated her thoughts once more. With her shins parallel to the ground and hands in perfect symmetry she began to talk once more…this time there was no feedback. She unloaded her mind and filled a space that was once occupied with doubt with hope and most of all…peace.